Hello...It has been ages since I laid my ass here...LOL. Now, something crossed my mind while I was typing the 'hello' word; who am I greeting???? I hope there's someone there though..>_<

5 years since my last piece, a lot of things had changed..from friends to work..but one thing din't change..ME! I still write when I feel I am lost, vulnerable and trying my very best to change for a better me but nothing works.

Well, to update on my current status..pretty much stagnant with the desperation of finding a better job with better pay and better benefit and also greater motivation. I don't even want to start talking about my love life, well, because there is nothing much to be told anyway..zero! These leave me with a constant thought to run away from all of these. Who was the fucking hell that created this fucking so-called LIFE definition which revolves around money, work and money! Okay, I am being a little too extreme here.

Cut to the chase, the reason I am here after so fucking long...Woah, I think I have a lot of frustration to be leased out. Okay, no more 'fxxking' word. Recently, I watched a movie that somehow inspire em to go out there again. Just to share with those who happen to drop by here.

The Secret Life of Walter Mitty is the title. This movie is about a normal person who has dedicated his life to LIFE magazine as an Negative Asset Manager for more than 10 years. When his job along with that of his co-worker are threatened, Walter takes action in the real world embarking on a global journey that turns into an adventure more extraordinary than anything he could have ever imagined. A very interesting movie with beautiful scenery and wonder soundtracks that made me ponder about my stagnant life. It really makes me want to go out there again.

 Writing again definitely makes me feel at peace. So, Next time, I'll be back with more to share.
 Adios..

A Sudden Rush of Adrenaline to 'Blog'

It is already 12.00am..and I am still here blogging. Hmmm....not the usual me because I would be a snoring pig on my bed now. All of the sudden, I feel like blogging..maybe because I got the inspiration from few of my friends who started to blog actively recently.

Lately, my stupid company blocked Facebook and MSN. Those were the mediums where I communicate or simply slacking when I got bored at work. Since they were blocked, I changed my so- called 'free time'(Orang besar hired you to work not doing other stuffs during work time..Wakakakaka..applicable to others NOT me!!!) to do other things >>> Reading other people blogs <<<. And I must say..I pretty much enjoy it!!! Seeing their worlds in their eyes..and by doing that, it helps me to release my stress at work. So far, work for me is totally nuisance..Why??Sigh...i just don't have the energy to express all my dissatisfaction here!!!I think one line should be able to express my tiredness towards my job..A small potato who was pushed to the shore by evil and clueless 'Kepala' and she is now without a paddle!!!I am indeed aimless, targetless and clueless to the journey to mend the BIG hole!!! Maybe i might sound a bit exaggerating...but try putting my shoes on your feet..then you would understand...

Sweep off that stupid 'fan nou' aside...the main reason I am still here because I was trying to google on how to design an E-Wedding invitation card..Ehhmm..I am not the person who is getting married here..but if I would also, I won't be so stupid to do this all my own. Sigh..I am doing this as a favor for my brother...How could I so easily promised that I would do this for him..And I thought its easy..Sigh..Actually, I already got this software I downloaded earlier and I have tried it. The problem is you have to pay in order to get rid of the advertisement and watermark that come with it..SIGH..Googling is easy..but then finding the right thing is hard!!!DAMN GOOGLE!!Ok..I shouldn't have cursed my boyfriend...i should curse myself for being so helpless!!! So, I stop for a while and indulge myself into blogging for no reason...OK..I am not an active blogger..as a matter of fact, I like reading other people blogs rather than writing my own blog because everytime I try to write anything down here, I would end up erasing every single words I wrote. And, I would only blog when I am on my lowest ground..You wouldn't want to see those sad sad blogs right??

Sigh...Giving up but only FOR NOW...haha..this lyrics just came across my mind when i was writing this line (Stop and stare, I think I'm moving but I go nowhere). OK, for now...i ain't going anywhere but I guess Stopping now doesn't means the end..Signing off now...Adios!!!Goodnight to my empty soul and many many empty soul out there!!! A little reminder to myself>>>PLEASE IMPROVE YOUR BROKEN ENGLISH LAR<<<

The "Unsung" Story....a.k.a The Story of You and Me by Zee Avi

The Story of You and Me by Zee Avi

Broken dreams, broken dreams,
hopin' some day you'll see me.
Sky is gray, sky is gray,
but I'm dancin in the rain.
Live to sway, live to sway,
will you remember my name?
Live a lie, live a lie,
why don't you ask yourself why?

Don't you open your eyes?

Only the moon, only the moon, only the moon,
will hear my plea.
Only the creatures of the night,
will harmonize with me.
Missed you so, missed you so,
and I wondered if you know;
The wind has blown me in this corner
and it's hard to let go.

That's the story, that's the story
of you and me

That's the story, that's the story
of you and me.

----The End----

This song is one of Zee Avi's song. This is my favorite song though it sounded very sad..That's the point of loving it...the voice that brings me into the story...but I would rather name the song as "The Unsung Story" just like the Unsung Heroes or 'The unknown heroes'....Stories have been told on and off...but this song tells the story of only the owner of the heart would know...Signing off now..hope u would enjoy it as much as I am...

Series of unfortunate events

Everyone loves Friday because it is the end of the working week and the starting of weekends mood...I thought so also because my colleagues and I had some plans on Friday night (be supporters for our company's futsal match with Ambank team and then a movie-The Proposal). But..........a long but...my particular Friday, 07 Aug 2009 started off with a kiss..huhuhu (sarcastically..=='''). Ok, It was a kiss from my car to other people car's backside....I heard a 'bang' and woke up instantly after that.. and not knowing what to do next, a man came out from the car and inspected his car...I was also trying to get out from my car and have a look but there were too many motorcycles passing by..Before I even had the chance to get out from my car, the man left the 'scene' and get back into his car..phew...what a relief!!!!A bang and nothing happened...Guess I break in time....So, still very much in shock but still able to laugh out loud, thinking all by myself that I was lucky after all, I continued my journey to office...

And there was where the epic 2 begins.....In the middle of discussion, I wanted to rub my eyes, I ended up broke my glasses with a gentle touch..the frame broke into 2 pieces...and from that moment, I felt like a bat...as blind as a bat!!!!Pathetic for a short sighted freak like me..with the power of 700++ on each eyeball...couldnt help with the feelings of being helpless because I couldnt see clearly...struggled in the blurness of view, luckily I was in office where i was able to borrow a super glue...got my boss to glue the glasses together in one piece but I was not comfortable with it...no choice..=='''

So...the whole 2 epics got me started to think that the whole plan for tonight is a no-go....so, I tried to convince my 'aiya' daddy and mommy that I don feel like going...I just had this no good feelings that something bad is going to happen..and yes it did..My instinct realli 'chun' la..and from there the epic 3 started..

Epic 3...tyre puncture..only realize it after picking up my colleague..why tyre puncture???I guess I hit a rock when i was turning in a small junction...SIGH!!My bro is so going to kill me...So, we stopped by the road side, trying to figure how 2 change the tyre....puzzled for quite some time there then finally decided to go petrol station to seek for people's help...so we drove there and still puzzling whom should we ask for help...a Malay man came to the rescue.. He was so happened to be there to buy some drinks...offered help..Thank God for sending him!!!So the whole changing tyre process finished in less than half an hour....cant thank him enough...then we continued with our initial Friday night plan.

Apart from these 3 epics..everything was ok after all..but one thing that got me so down beneath were the non-stop calls from my stupid brother...Haiz..i guess i'll leave that part for another piece of my shit la..and my awful Friday night ends here...but I got alot to follow up...SIGH!!!